I need to breathe, there’s too much in my chest, alot on my throat I feel choked. I need to let go of my past and re-animate myself; no more jumping from bed to bed, no more drinking like a suicidal drunk, and definitely no more being selfish and inconsiderate of other people’s feelings, hers especially. I need to see a future for me and her. She’s the most precious thing in my life. She hasn’t been born yet but I’ve named her Petra. I imagine she’s beautiful; pretty dimpled face and mild skin, she smiles at me. And I know the best of the world is what I’ll need to give her. I need to be there when Petra will mutter her first words, and despite me and her mother constantly tiffing and rarely getting along, we just gleam and embrace for her sake. It’s crazy my in-laws hate me so much. I suppose if it were up to them, they’d kill me. It’s why I thank God it’s not up to them, I’ll tell you they’d tear me to pieces. I digressed though.. I love her man, I need to let her know how much she means to me. For too long I’ve kept that to myself. I need to bury my ashes from the burnt remains of our love. I know I am a fool, but only on that, she’s the greatest blessing and I’d be stupid to remain ignorant of that. God am thankful! If I had a way I’d pay you back in a million dollars but you’re worth more than that. You created her, and she’s worth more than millions! I love you baby girl:)

(My Intellect’s Loud And Noisy-MILAN)

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